Deb Quaife

Well, I made it through the first year of firsts, believe me there were times when I didn't think I would. Cried a river of tears and they still freely flow. I think... more

Well, I made it through the first year of firsts, believe me there were times when I didn't think I would. Cried a river of tears and they still freely flow. I think they always will, Gay was the love of my life. That's OK too. 2012 finds me moved into an apartment in Hiawatha. Only the 3rd time I've lived in apartment life, but it puts me closer to the dr. and hospital. At least I got to keep Lynyrd with me special exception because he is over their weight limit, but we're doing ok. Been here almost 2 months and still not moved in completely, well it takes time and extra for me now. Still cry because I miss my love so terribly, sure I always will even though through the years we talked about what my life would be like without him, and what he wanted for me to have in my life. Even without his choosing his time, the 13 years that separated us made him believe he would go first. I never really imagined life without him and didn't know how much I would really miss his snoring, his smile, his laugh and just the all of him. I have 2 pictures I look at every night. One of him on his birthday 2/16/2010 and the second is of him and Ginger Marie laying on the hospital bed on 4/7/2010 the day before he died. There is such a difference in such a short amount of time.