Jasmine Elisa Beltran

~~♥⌡a Sℳ ɪNEℰ ♡ ℰℒ ⅰｓa ♥~~ It's insane the way situations change, how I expect things to stay a certain way or happen a certain way… But I... more

~~♥⌡a Sℳ ɪNEℰ ♡ ℰℒ ⅰｓa ♥~~ It's insane the way situations change, how I expect things to stay a certain way or happen a certain way… But I also know that, that's just life… I don't know if I should call this fate, or if I truly believe in fate… The freedom that we all have been given to us, to think in whatever way we want, whenever we want… Is the freedom that makes me who I am, when I want to be a certain way or act a certain way… I have come to find out that the hardest thing for anyone, if they would want to admit it or not is really finding who we are not for the sake of others but for our own sake… I have come to believe that most, including myself never reveal who we really are and what we want to stand for, maybe it's fear of finding out that we might be ugly inside, or believing in something that most would consider horrible, disgusting , or shameful… So in our mind we deicide to cover it up for the moment, we all do this everyday ,with people that we meet, live with, and love or are in love with… It seems as if we wake up to yet again the mission to avoid ourselves, who we really are. To avoid or ignore are true feelings… When you finally think you know yourself , you face some other situation that is completely different begin t that yet again you become confused… In the end, we only left with what we where born with, in the end I believe that no person ever knows who they really are, that is till you really are at your end, when you finally stop and think and realize that you spent most of your life afraid of who you really are and trying to fit a certain image of who you want to be, and what you want to believe, for the sake of belonging and having a certain "happy" in your life… We have the freedom to live in your own lie or to accept my fact, that its just a waste of time to "find yourself" because you never will. we change everyday, we change our minds, we have the freedom to change life will never stop changing, so why not just go with it and enjoy the ride in the end it does not matter no one will care… speak up when you want, be evil if you want to if that's what you feel, be good if your in the mood, and don't feel as if your doing something taboo and stop wasting your life and live. Don't be afraid to show who you really are…