Kimberly Nething

I’m Irish, German, Scottish, Swedish, Sicilian, and Cherokee Indian… in case you were wondering. I’m older, quieter, and probably less exciting than I appear. I... more

I’m Irish, German, Scottish, Swedish, Sicilian, and Cherokee Indian… in case you were wondering. I’m older, quieter, and probably less exciting than I appear. I may look like a rebel, but I follow the rules… for the most part. I’m not wild and crazy, I’m shy and demure. I'm very much an introvert. I spend a lot of time alone, but I like being social… in small groups. I enjoy spending time with people one on one. In large groups, I become a wallflower, forgotten, ignored... at least that's how I feel. But I like to listen and observe. I’m more aware of what’s going on around me than I tend to let on. I get nervous around people I don’t know. If I don’t talk to you, it’s not that I don’t want to, or don’t like you, it’s because I may be uncomfortable and not know what to say. I’m very self-conscious, though not about my body. Sometimes I care too much about what people think of me. But if I’m drunk, you can pretty much throw all of the above out the window. I stress and obsess and worry about things I shouldn’t. It’s hard for me to let things go. I apologize for things I don’t need to and blame myself for everything. I don’t regret, but thoughts of “what if…?” keep me up at night. I don’t dwell on the past, but I miss parts of it. It’s hard for me to sleep. My brain never shuts down. I’m caring, and loyal, and probably way too forgiving. I trust easily, but I’m not naive. I have a good instinct, which I tend not to listen to because it only tells me things I don’t want to be true. My heart always wants me to do the opposite of what my brain tells me is rational to do. My heart needs the attention, my brain gets plenty of it already. If I love you, I’ll love you forever. I remember people long after they’ve forgotten about me… and long after they may think I have forgotten about them. Friendship is important to me, and maintaining a closeness regardless of where life leads and what paths we take. I don’t know where I’m going or what I’m doing, for now I’m just living, day by day. Wandering through life, no particular direction.