Up until the wee hours, making bad and impulsive decisions again, quick temper and misophonia. Disappointed because the meds appeared to be working at first.

Manic for most of the day yesterday... hopefully today won't be too bad...

I was doing so well. I hate having episodes bad enough that I fight with my family!!! :~'(

Watching A Bipolar Expedition on 4oD
www.channel4.com/programmes/a-bipolar-expedition/4od

At the end of March I completly broke and had a huge mental breakdown. Switched my meds. I'm now on ciprolex for my anxiety w is starting to finally kick in. The withdrawals from getting off the... more

At the end of March I completly broke and had a huge mental breakdown. Switched my meds. I'm now on ciprolex for my anxiety w is starting to finally kick in. The withdrawals from getting off the effexor was cruel and I'm glad I'm finally on them.

I was on a high for about 10 months: up for days at a time, 20-hour phone conversations, impulsive/unsafe decisions, spending money freely, hyperactivity, promiscuity, quick anger… think I'm coming... more

I was on a high for about 10 months: up for days at a time, 20-hour phone conversations, impulsive/unsafe decisions, spending money freely, hyperactivity, promiscuity, quick anger… think I'm coming down. Meds probably helping.

Think my mind has adjusted to the meds now. They don't seem as miraculous now…

Okay. Feeling reeeeeeeally sad rn! Out of the blue! *rolling eyes* ~ duh that's why it's known as SUDDEN DRASTIC emotion/mood changes ~

The ups and downs, I mean the sudden changes are really hard for me to hide from others

Its sad people dont really understand what goes thru my mind!!! I loose'em that way

I'm convinced I have this...just haven't been diagnosed yet.

Neighbor's up ealry blasting the radios on different stations, packing a uhaul. Does this mean he's moving?!

I started back on meds today; since I can't find a pdoc that takes my insurance, my primary care doc is going to prescribe for me. This is my first time on Depakote & I'm just hoping that maybe this... more

I started back on meds today; since I can't find a pdoc that takes my insurance, my primary care doc is going to prescribe for me. This is my first time on Depakote & I'm just hoping that maybe this time, I can find some balance and get off this effing roller coaster.

It makes me sad to think of my past not knowing I was bipolar and losing friends

Reading all the conversations makes me realize how much my meds have helped me! I feel for all of you with such strong ups and downs.

My family thinks that I'm crazy or I'm kidding. They think I'm over reacting. That I'm searching for problem. I just don't get it... Whatever...

Somebody started telling me about somebody else who possibly has the symptoms of this. I don't think my confidant wants to hear the truth.

Hard to deal with

Lowering meds and starting up another is starting to physically take its toll on me.

Watching gay movies to get out of my moods ... Im still down I want to throw something

I feel lethargic ... I just wanna disappear ... :-(

Argh this week of being sick has made my low....very low. I don't want to do anything I don't want to go anywhere just lay here.

I'm convinced my husband suffers from it and if only he'd get help we'd be able to save our marriage.

Sticks and stones may break your bones, but horrible things that your Father says to you will psychologically scar you forever.

Looowww bp may need to go back on lithium

Have a serious downing time. Help!

I hate having this. All I want to do is lay in bed and cry😢

really bad down day, topped off with severe back pain and a migraine ... kill me now ... i feel like death already

I don't actually have it, but I've been close to someone who did. Can't say that I like it, but it is kind of interesting.

Of course. The better my up day, the longer and bleaker the crash. Since I was spectacularly happy for a few hours two days ago, I don't see another good day until April. And all I see is bile and... more

Of course. The better my up day, the longer and bleaker the crash. Since I was spectacularly happy for a few hours two days ago, I don't see another good day until April. And all I see is bile and gloom and putrid self.